Breaking Free from the Loops

Throughout this journey of self-cultivation, I came to understand one thing: what is happening now is also what will continue to happen if I do not change.
The loops will continue to exist, whether they involve the good or the bad.
Whenever I recognized one of my own loops, I often felt pain and struggled against it. And that was not the right way to approach a problem. Because when you become too immersed in what is bad, you can no longer see the good that still exists. It is like living in a room for so long that you forget there is an entire world outside.
And the way to break the loop is to believe that the room has a door, and to believe in the possibilities of the world beyond it. In other words, it is about believing that you deserve beautiful things and believing in the world you are capable of creating out there.
Let me give an example:
Through my experiences with family and friends, I went through a period of deluding myself into believing that I was living in a good family. At that time, my worldview was not yet broad enough, and everything I knew existed only in theory. When confronted with reality, those beliefs easily fell apart. That was when I stepped out of one enclosed room, only to enter another.
Because I did not dare to face reality, I began believing in that second room, where there were no longer falsehoods or theories, but instead pain and fear. I came to believe that perhaps I would never have a happy family.
It was not until I saw reality clearly and stepped out of that room into the world that I discovered the truth: there are terrible families, there are good families, and there are also families that you can create for yourself, built upon the things you deserve.
At that point, I no longer tried to force things or stubbornly cling to a particular person or problem. I began seeing things for what they truly were and accepting them.
For me, the journey of seeking the Light and walking the spiritual path felt like something I had always known would eventually happen.
The first time was probably when I was 17 years old. Through an opportunity to attend a meditation course that my family had previously introduced to me, I began experiencing spiritual phenomena more frequently and more deeply. Those experiences quickly guided me toward the Light and onto the path that would lead me to my teacher.
Two years later, I fully accepted and officially took my first steps on my own spiritual path, receiving the companionship and guidance of my teacher and fellow students.
Beginning with the first steps of transforming my own thoughts, I learned to recognize energy, to protect myself from negative energies, to generate and seek out sources of energy for myself, and to find ways to contribute to my community and team.
Through my still-young life, and through the lessons and tests that came from the universe, I gradually came to understand more about my own losses and sorrows. And the Light within me has been one of the most beautiful things that has helped me understand more deeply how the world around me works.