Rosie's personal calling

Rosie - personal calling

It was in 2019 when I started having strange experiences in my sleep. Day after day, I would keep waking up at 3am in the morning and couldn’t go back to sleep easily. I didn’t have any health issues back then. My work was not stressful. I tried to find the causes to why I kept waking up in the middle of the night but had no clues. Somehow later, from some hints sent to me through random conversations with friends and they made some strange remarks, I started doing more research in the spiritual realms. The unease feelings kept growing as some more strange phenomenon happened in my room. I did not give the issue my whole attention as I often got carried away by work and relationships. But I knew I would stay stagnant if I did not make some big changes to the very stable yet boring lifestyle that I was leading. And also, my boredom towards my life at the time also reached its peak. I couldn’t find any meaning in my job or even my life. And that bothered me a lot as I had always wanted to do something meaningful since early age. Finally in summer 2019, I decided to submit my letter of resignation. I had no future plans, no savings, no assets at that time, which all contributed to my procrastination towards the final decision. The only next move that I knew I would do was to return to my hometown, my home country. At that time the calling appeared to me as an obsession that I had to find an answer to: “I need to go back to my home country. I need to live in my home country.” 3D family was the only reason that I could rely on to explain for that back then. But now I have come to the realization that I had to come back because in that country I would meet and reunite with someone who played a critical role in my spiritual and ascension journey.

It finally took me 2 years after that letter of resignation to accept and welcome the serious spiritual journey that I had set foot on. During those 2 years, I lived in a constant state of confusion and feeling lost. Nothing made sense, nothing was clear, nothing was explainable. And for someone who is heavy on logical thinking, that was a complete suffering. Little did I know that those were my first times to practice letting go, following my intuition and being receptive to living an uncertain life. So much intervention from the outer world almost successfully pulled me back to a ‘normal’ life. Those often came from 3D family, the lust for fame and money, as well as the discomfort with myself often projected on other people and events. 

From the moment of acceptance, I have moved forward on my spiritual journey with more determination, motivation and less resistance. More truths have unfolded. More transformations have taken place at the core levels. And more importantly, I have found my teachers, my teammates - the new family that I am now working hands in hands with to come back to Home together and to serve the Light.